Today is actually my sister’s birthday, my younger sister. I should dedicate this to her, and in case she reads this, I want to say what a profound effect she has had on me. Through her I have learned what true endurance in the face of trials means. I also hope, from her example, to learn more how to reach out to people more, to value people more. I also admire how she listens, really listens to what I have to say. I hope to learn this more every day. To my sister I say: I love you – thank you for the gift of yourself to me again and again!

Now, the actual reason for suddenly writing here today, after a seven month void. My daughter informed me that if I don’t write something soon I may no longer be found on FB – so here I am breaking my silence and throwing all caution to the wind! But besides this, I am filled with thoughts of what I want to share with others about all I have been learning these past five years, and before, about what it is like to be a SURVIVOR. So, if you are interested, this will be my subject and is the subject already of my songs.

Till next time,

Julie

Dear Reader,

It has been said, that people with serious trauma are the loneliest people on earth. Why? I have asked myself … and I believe it is due to the tremendous difficulty of opening up any part of ourselves. There are just too many wounded areas.

This is why I don’t talk to people, especially not about myself, not without a great effort before, during and after any attempt. And this is why I talk more to myself, and I offer here a chance to share with each other the things that are too hard to tell someone else. Here we want to share, and accept, care and protect each other. Please, think of the golden rule: do unto others as you would have done unto you.

And, with love,

Julie

Heart it is Aching – breaking

And I try to get away –

like the water that is flowing – going

I see a place in the distance

and when I get there

it will be Peace – for once – for all

And I can’t wait – to get there

where I won’t cry anymore

won’t force myself anymore – to keep from crumbling

I am falling – calling out to You

The clocks are ticking – time is going – I won’t follow because

because I must stay HERE – until the dread – the pain

has had its TIME to wear itself OUT – of me – out of me

I will breathe again – see again – and will finally be able

to get up and go