Julie DeTroy

I wrote this song in 2016, a few months before recording my second CD, called SURVIVOR. I wanted to express what the process of healing that I was going through felt like.  I trusted in God’s love for me and the hope for renewal.  But since then, in the past eight years, I have searched more deeply for the things I have been lacking, and found they are still surviving, in me.   

This is the text from the first version:

SURVIVOR

It’s to understand what devastating pain can do to you,

Your life trod on before it started to bloom

All you had were – splintered parts inside of you

So you fought to survive

All you knew was hurt – in your deepest part

Trying to defend that little spark

And no one understands why you can’t take part

You had to fight  –  just to survive

The love you’ve never had – has passed you by

Now you wake up – start to rise up

Discovering parts in you you never knew

Feel healing – releasing – hope begins to rise

You want to understand

the devastating things that happened to you

And to take a chance for your life to bloom

And all the splintered parts inside of you

Can come to life

And you’re allowed to hurt – in the deepest part

‘Cause someone is there holding your inner spark

Someone who understands all your heart

*He gave His life to make you alive

And He can heal that hurt in the deepest part

‘cause He is the One holding your inner spark

Jesus understands all of your heart

He gave His life to make you alive

The life you never had, is given to you

(*original ending)

Today’s ending:

*It’s you – who holds the key to love –

The love you never had – surviving in you

Words and Music: Julie DeTroy 2016/2020/2024